Arachnaphobia.

Last night i kept the windows of my car open, you know, thought the next day would be a 32 degree day and by the time i drove it, it would be cool inside - it was. While i was driving to the beach with my friend, a massive 10cm wide spider, really really hairy, runs past my friends window and towards the dashboard. She freaks out, and starts screaming and jumps to the back seat (Never in my life, have a i witnessed such a fast physical reaction), and i make a quick turn and park the car on some random entrance to a motel, we open all the doors and run out. Honestly, i can say that was the most frightful situation i have ever been in. It's worse then getting a tattoo on your spine. After that, we thoroughly checked the car, and it was gone- hoping it crawled out the window and got run over by another car (fingers crossed). I have never ever seen a spider of that size before.
Thought i'd share this horrifying experience.

a moment in time.

Under the trees.

Being an off-campus student, come with its positives ...and negatives.
It feels like being home-schooled, which could sound great in the sense i dont need to wake up for anything, i have alot of time on my hands, i'm at home most of the day and i don't need to take public transport to a scheduled class everyday. It's been like this for nearly a school-year now.(which isn't THAT long). But i feel like i'm missing out on all the things that 'going' to university provides. When i was in high school, i was so excited to go to uni, couldn't wait to make new friends, start again, find myself. And i tried in Gippsland, but that just wasn't for me. The thing is i'm such a lazy person, that i'm beginning to fall in love with off-campus, and if i keep doing it, then my mind will be in a state where that's all i want. But it isn't. And to me, it's not about making freinds, being part of clubs, but it's to belong somewhere. Be part of something, an educational-social network that can offer me so much more in life. I'm a Monash student, but i am not a Monash Student.

s2

Love is an option, so is a promise.

The answers.

I often wonder what the point of my existence is, the reason for life is, Hell, i'm sure we all do at some point in our lives. Sure, different religions, different cultures, different people all have some sort of view for the answers of life, but what if i believe there is no answer, does that make me an atheist? But i believe in god, so i can't be an atheist. My interpretation of god, is just one powerful being who has created us. Wether he/she is in the form or named Buddha, Krishna, Jesus etc, it doesn't bother me. And i don't mean to offend anyone or their beliefs, just for the record. Malcolm X once said, Education is our passport into the world. We as, humans are constantly learning every day, through experiences, through observation, through being taught. And these experiences- come with it, long term advantages, that help us get through 'life'. Now, along the way of your experiences, this thing called life sprouts. Like a seed into a tree. Developing each branch at each stage of your life. Life and death is another situation without answers. Because death is inevitable, and life is, well life. You are given one life, and it is your choice to decide what to do with it. You can't sit there one day and just try to find a reason for why your in this position,pinpointing every turn you made, every person you interacted with, because the only real answer-is within yourself,it is your life, it is you.

New level of sad

I don't know if it's sad that I'm at Nandos eating alone, or that I prefer being alone.

stand still

No matter what comes crashing down, i'm still gonna stand my solid ground.

Open for Options.

220/365

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Happiness is not something ready-made. It comes from your own actions.

-The Dalai Lama

Foot on the ground.

Let me fall, so i can pick myself up again.

Surreal

In between what's real and what's not, I see your face.

Far Away

I need to hear you say, I love you, I loved you all along, I forgive you.

Blink

from something to nothing.

Hope

You look over your shoulder for that one last time, and it's gone.

196/365

5 days till i am off in the beautiful island of Bali, Indonesia. Only 120% stoked right now. I was thinking of what to pack and i decided i'm going to bring 1 dress, 1 skirt, 1 shirt; so that i have like a full suitcase to bring stuff back in ! hahahhaah.Enjoying some mango fruche right now, so creamy and cold textured! yummers.

I've got the worst cough right now, i get little fits in my sleep, and have to chew on vapodrops, which isn't that bad because the buttermenthol flavour is oh-so delish!
But i really hope i get better before Bali! My Holga camera i bought from ebay still hasn't arrive- really hoping that comes in (along with the film ordered at Ted's Cameras) comes very sooooooon!

That's all for now =D

Bali, Indonesia.

I AM INCREDIBLY EXCITED TO GO TO BALI! ONLY 8 MORE DAYS LEFT TILL IM OFF WITH GEMMA ON AN ADVENTUROUS TRIP. I BOUGHT A HOLGA CAMERA FROM EBAY TODAY, I HOPE IT COMES BEFORE I GO TO BALI. SO EXCITED IM GOING TO YEAP. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

OPSHOPSHOPPING

BREAKFREE

Happy Easter everyone. I don't know wether i celebrate it or not. My mum's Hindu and my dad's Christian. That makes me half, or what i choose? well i choose to be both. So i half celebrate it? Desifadio. (8)I woke up this morning feelin' like [Rihanna], i had a swollen/puffy eye. It hurts and i have no idea why it appeared. . . Quote from my mother, "you look like a druggie".

*I know i'm over exaggerating, but i feel empty without my iPhone

*Really need to buy a table to study on, see'ing as i might be an off-campus student:)

*excited for the nerd party at Seven this Wednesday!

My birthday is coming up, 17 days, i'll finally be 18. Although i'm not very excited as everyone else was to turn 18. To be honest, i want to stay 17, keep my youth.
Wow, I remember orientation day of high school at Mount Waverley in year 7. And now i;m first year uni and nearly 18. It's insane just thinking about it.

NOT MADE FOR WALKING.

really.REALLY.really, want these boots !
Although i did just purchase a pair of black ankle boots. BUT they gave me blisters after wearing/dancing in them all night :(

SHATTERED

This photo represents how i feel right now.Yes, i did just lose my iPhone last night , FML.