Arachnaphobia.

Last night i kept the windows of my car open, you know, thought the next day would be a 32 degree day and by the time i drove it, it would be cool inside - it was. While i was driving to the beach with my friend, a massive 10cm wide spider, really really hairy, runs past my friends window and towards the dashboard. She freaks out, and starts screaming and jumps to the back seat (Never in my life, have a i witnessed such a fast physical reaction), and i make a quick turn and park the car on some random entrance to a motel, we open all the doors and run out. Honestly, i can say that was the most frightful situation i have ever been in. It's worse then getting a tattoo on your spine. After that, we thoroughly checked the car, and it was gone- hoping it crawled out the window and got run over by another car (fingers crossed). I have never ever seen a spider of that size before.
Thought i'd share this horrifying experience.

a moment in time.

Under the trees.

Being an off-campus student, come with its positives ...and negatives.
It feels like being home-schooled, which could sound great in the sense i dont need to wake up for anything, i have alot of time on my hands, i'm at home most of the day and i don't need to take public transport to a scheduled class everyday. It's been like this for nearly a school-year now.(which isn't THAT long). But i feel like i'm missing out on all the things that 'going' to university provides. When i was in high school, i was so excited to go to uni, couldn't wait to make new friends, start again, find myself. And i tried in Gippsland, but that just wasn't for me. The thing is i'm such a lazy person, that i'm beginning to fall in love with off-campus, and if i keep doing it, then my mind will be in a state where that's all i want. But it isn't. And to me, it's not about making freinds, being part of clubs, but it's to belong somewhere. Be part of something, an educational-social network that can offer me so much more in life. I'm a Monash student, but i am not a Monash Student.

s2

Love is an option, so is a promise.

The answers.

I often wonder what the point of my existence is, the reason for life is, Hell, i'm sure we all do at some point in our lives. Sure, different religions, different cultures, different people all have some sort of view for the answers of life, but what if i believe there is no answer, does that make me an atheist? But i believe in god, so i can't be an atheist. My interpretation of god, is just one powerful being who has created us. Wether he/she is in the form or named Buddha, Krishna, Jesus etc, it doesn't bother me. And i don't mean to offend anyone or their beliefs, just for the record. Malcolm X once said, Education is our passport into the world. We as, humans are constantly learning every day, through experiences, through observation, through being taught. And these experiences- come with it, long term advantages, that help us get through 'life'. Now, along the way of your experiences, this thing called life sprouts. Like a seed into a tree. Developing each branch at each stage of your life. Life and death is another situation without answers. Because death is inevitable, and life is, well life. You are given one life, and it is your choice to decide what to do with it. You can't sit there one day and just try to find a reason for why your in this position,pinpointing every turn you made, every person you interacted with, because the only real answer-is within yourself,it is your life, it is you.

New level of sad

I don't know if it's sad that I'm at Nandos eating alone, or that I prefer being alone.

stand still

No matter what comes crashing down, i'm still gonna stand my solid ground.